Butterflies :(

Life is so exhausting sometimes, it kills me.

And you’ve proven to choose the second side, surprising eh?

Basically this is me, stating that I’m starting over.

How cliché, oh I know- but believe me this needs to happen. I’m done thinking about you, I’m done talking about you, I’m done posting anything about you. I’m living my life like I was before you entered it, before love hit me like a ton of bricks. The only thing that could change it is you coming back but that will never happen, so I guess this is my last post to you. Ever. 

I’ve said it a million times before but I’m gone. Ridding all the negatives.

It’s ridiculous how relevant this is because I really should’ve hurt you, you deserved it. I couldn’t hurt you because my whole heart only feels for you. I would do anything, even risk my own soul, to make sure you’re happy. The thing is, without hurting you I let you hurt me. And I only let you do that because I thought that’d make you happy and make you stay, I need you. But you left and now I can’t do anything about it.

Awesome, someone was on my ask on my personal, got hope it was Seth… Because I’m always hoping it’s him.

Turns out to be no one.
Lovelifesomuch. 

Everyone gives up on me, it’s nothing new.

I wish I could explain it all to you. Why i bring myself to be so close to someone then push myself away. It’s how I’m built and that’s how I’m going to be until I’m out of love with the one I’m missing. I can’t promise that will ever happen. I’m not saying I won’t ever fully be yours because we are so great for each other. I’m just too hungup on a hopeless dream that won’t ever come true. Please don’t leave because of my fuck ups and mistakes, you’re all I truly have.

Loljk you just texted me to say you were kidding. Way to scare me, meh.

That was your last chance and you blew it. Nice going shithead.